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Trauma

Trauma is entrancing. Its darkness ignites a certain curiosity within us, testing the realms of our fear, our powerlessness, the unknown. Its tentacles waging war in our psyches, in every universe within us. We become mesmerized by both its strengths and its weaknesses. We become mesmerized by our responses to what trauma triggers within us. […]

This is something I speak about often with clients. It seemed to be a recurring theme this week with sessions which is why I wanted to share a few thoughts here. Let’s look at the shaming around illness, especially around illness that is not so obvious to others, even those closest to you. There are so many new “illnesses” that are being diagnosed everyday, and younger people are coming down with conditions at a higher percentage from twenty years ago, ten years ago, even five years ago. It is not uncommon for me to hear from a client that people remark they look okay, so there isn’t an understanding or comprehension of a physical malady upon sight. A friend yesterday showed me a photo of a young woman she knows who is very ill and I said, “You wouldn’t know it because she looks amazing.” Yet many of these illnesses work insidiously, depleting a body of its most necessary resources and causing a myriad of symtoms for the sufferer. We are in a society where people are uncomfortable with their bodies first and foremost, and more so when it comes to becoming ill. We are a culture that does not know how to respect or approach illness within ourselves or someone we know. Please take a moment to take that last statement in. People are uncomfortable around illness and have many times, create shame based thoughts and relationships around that uncomfortability as opposed to learning new ways of approaching and respecting what are bodies or minds are struggling with. The shame based relationship we create with illness keeps us disassociated from ourselves and each other, furthering isolation and stress. Indigenous cultures understood the importance of relating to illness authentically, so that there was a sense of honor in alignment with one’s suffering no matter the extent of the illness.

There is such isolation that comes with the loss of emotional freedom, especially when it comes to people being able to express how they feel when they are ill.  A separation from society and from what is considered the norm is prevalent. Well, we are being shown that illness is again, occuring at any age […]

Retreat slowly

So that when worlds collide You will know where to find Your solitude Amidst the chaos. It will liken itself To an innocence not lost, Only hidden from sight Until it was ready to Be completely understood.

Being human is not for the faint of heart.

Life is so very real, fragile, exhilarating, painful, luminescent. Your bones bathe in your ancestor’s wounds While your soul carresses a future lineage awaiting Each breath of your awakening. You could taste the earth, its rooted energies, As it draws life into your blood And moistens your marrow. A life so vast the rocks and […]

From ashes to ashes

And dust to dust We lay down our lives with each dawn That passes when we  Turn our hearts against each other. There is no realm Where we will not wait For a patient judgement That softens the hardness From generations past Who crave leniency for a prayer Not yet spoken Because pain for some […]

Between heaven and hell

I heard the voices of my ancestors Rising up and wondering if their lives  Still had any worth beyond the veil. I listened to their cries as shame Ripped through fragments of their souls. Fatigued from their self pity, I tore apart the realms in search of every grace Afforded to them from lifetimes of […]

She held on so tightly

In wanting to become Someone other than who she was That she forgot pieces of herself That were trying to move on Were actually gifts from God Ready to be set free So that in becoming The holding on and letting go Were a love affair destined by the universe To mold her into whom […]