Trauma is entrancing.
Its darkness ignites a certain curiosity within us, testing the realms of our fear, our powerlessness, the unknown.
Its tentacles waging war in our psyches, in every universe within us.
We become mesmerized by both its strengths and its weaknesses.
We become mesmerized by our responses to what trauma triggers within us.
Some of us become so fascinated by the power it wields that we would rather allow ourselves to be engulfed in the flames
than to sit back and bear witness.
We name it, we love it, we hate it.
We identify with it at the same time we run from it.
We challenge it.
In understanding and knowing it more deeply, we feel we can know ourselves.
The day will come when you are not hypnotized by it any more.
The power struggle will quiet itself and you will simply walk away.
Bearing witness sometimes offers a greater reward than continuing to engage.