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I don’t usually keep notes from clients after we have worked together, but I was reminded of a note that remains with me from someone I worked with almost twenty years ago. In light of the full moon’s energies, I wanted to share a story that I tell in some of my lectures. As I recount this story through the years I am sure there are parts I recall all of a sudden as there are parts I forget. It continually reminds me that our voices are always heard even when we think no one is listening. One day I was called to visit the home of a young man who had terminal cancer. He had a few weeks left to live, was in his early 30’s and his wife had just given birth to their first child a few months prior. I don’t usually make home visits, but when someone is transitioning. it is an honor to bear witness within this most sacred space. I walked into the bedroom and he lay on the bed with barely enough flesh clinging to his bones, so dehydrated from the literal loss of water and life from his tissues. He was unconscious. In the room with me were his nurse, his wife and his mother. The nurse and his mother wondered what I was doing there, and the wife tried to explain that I had various abilities of communication with the living and those who have crossed. I gently grabbed his hand as he lay motionless and my first response was to keel over in pain and gasp. I grabbed the area of pain I was in and asked his wife how much pain he was in before he lost consciousness. She remarked that even with the pain medications, he would struggle in agony at the very place I was holding onto. I told him telepathically who I was and that he could share with me any thoughts he had so I could relay them to his wife. I would preface any words that came from my mouth with, ‘He said..” He began telling me about a conversation they had had about going on vacation, or rather, the vacation they had wanted to take, all the places they had wanted to visit, and how he would miss going with her. He was concerned about their child, their financial future and gave specific insight into their conversation. As I was relaying these messages to his wife, the nurse left the room and his mother did not know what to make of me. I think they were both in shock. His wife recounted a conversation they had had a few nights prior while he was still conscious about those thoughts I was sharing. He then began to describe to me in length the people he was seeing in the room from time to time. It was challenging to me because I only saw a few of them in those very moments. These were people he had known when he was a child that had passed on. His wife would not know them and his mother said she had no clue as to whom I was speaking of. He would repeat his words in my mind about his elderly neighbor who would teach him baseball and I would just keep repeating those same words. There was a calmness to his tone as he identified various friends in the spirit world who were happily waiting for him to join them. I continued to hold his hand, allowing his pain to pass through me and told him he could go any time he was ready. His mother still did not believe me and his wife was in tears. As I walked out. something or someone reached for my shoulder. I turned around and this unconscious man’s eyes opened. He smiled a huge smile and waved at me and then went unconscious again. It still sends chills down my spine to this day. Upon leaving the wife had asked me if I knew how long he had left. I did and I told her.

Less than two weeks later I attended the funeral. His wife saw me walk in and rushed up to me. She said her husband had become conscious for a brief time. Can’t recall if it was that evening or the next day. Both his wife and his mother were in the room when this happened. He asked his wife, “Did you hear everything I told Laura to tell you?” Their mouths dropped open, even as she recounted the story. He then went on to describe the same people he had described to me and his mother began remembering.

This story is not about me and what I can do. This is about you and what we all can do. This is about the power of thought, of communication, between various worlds and in various ways. Babies can hear us as they mature inside our wombs. Those in comas await fervently for our voices to console them. Those on the other side still like to have conversations. The natural world is alive with energy and the trees hear our voices as much as the animals do. If your words are of light, the power to heal is immense. If your words are of love, the power to carry ourselves and each other as one is Divine. Speak tenderly of Spirit even when you think no one is listening. I promise, a world which many cannot imagine is awaiting to hear your voice.

Inadequacy Enlightened

 

When most people think of the word inadequate. what comes to mind is not being good enough. It indeed has its roots in self worth, self identity, shame and loss.
Loss alters one’s mind and heart when identity is left to be unearthed by psychological, emotional and societal paradigms; by aspects of the psyche that are ingrained from the time we are in the womb through the norms of social and behavioral development. The aura of innocence becomes skewed as we mature from babies to children and we individually and collectively take on the wounds of those around us and those who came before us. The holiness many of us know on such a deep level becomes enmeshed in our thoughts of who we should be, who we aren’t and what we might never become. That holiness never fades, it is simply forgotten as we become programmed toward establishing an identity which suits external influences in our lives. Those influences become internalized setting up a pattern in which thoughts of ‘not being good enough’ or ‘not being enough’ get challenged on a daily basis. I am okay with those thoughts if they take you further inside yourself to become reacquainted with your holiness. Most of the time those thoughts continue to separate us from ourselves and the world around us. Those thoughts then set the precedence for much of the hatred we experience within and between race, sexual orientation, religion, and all relationships, including the one we have with ourselves. Our feelings of inadequacy can feel overwhelming and propel us into a state of powerlessness. We feel like we have no control over who or what we are and/or who or what others perceive us to be. It is an addictive emotional spiral that takes us down the rabbit hole searching for something that has actually never left us. Beyond the shame, beyond the loss, beyond the powerlessness, there is an identity which has yet to be discovered within ourselves. An identity when embraced, raises inadequacy to a state of enlightenment which desires to be respected. Not for the hurt it can do, but for the self realization it offers us through that place of holiness. That gentle place, where identity meets the Divine. That place where we are held as much as we do the holding for ourselves and each other.  Identity takes on a whole new meaning when we walk hand in hand with our holiness, and inadequacy becomes part of that holiness.

Rebirth

The ancient womb is awakening.

Since the onset of this new year, I have noticed many feeling unsure as to which direction to head in; feeling like intentions set forth for this year of 2019 are being set aside.
Impatience is rising as is frustration. The universal womb is contracting, ready to give birth too all of us, to this new paradigm which was seen and known by the ancient ones. This new womb is awakening with fervor and passion, strength and a determination to gather collectively to heal in ways we have not understood before. The ancients understood. It is we who have been sleeping, cradling ourselves in this materialistic and linear construct mentally, psychologically, emotionally and spiritually. Many have focused on doing the inner work of the soul yet somewhere in the midst, the notion of simplicity of the Divine, of Holy Providence, of the Spiritual Laws of the Universe have been lost to oblivion. We are all wanting to vibrate to a higher frequency that the simplicity of love and our relationship to it becomes so ensconced we may fail to recognize the Divine in everything within and around us. Our unyielding search for this profound Holiness takes us away from being present. The path is right here, right now. The Divine is right here, right now. You are right here, right now. Whether we are conscious or not, the Divine still works through us in both seen and unseen ways. Engaging the ‘search’ for the path out of desire to achieve enlightenment carries many attachments. The ripples are being felt as our attachments are being challenged as what we thought we envisioned for this new year may not manifest in the ways we had intended. Your womb is held by the universal womb. The ripples being felt are at such an intensity that many are left questioning if they are headed in the right direction. The anxieties being felt are because we are all ready to be birthed anew. If we hold onto the old understandings of our purpose in this world, we will struggle. If we allow for ourselves to move into Presence, our purpose will be revealed. And if the purpose is familiar to you, the way you carry it into the world will be different. This ancient womb carries many mysteries. Some will be revealed individually as we embark on our journeys, some will be revealed collectively, and some mysteries will remain forever in the house of the gods serving a purpose we humans might never comprehend.

Another Perspective on The Law of Attraction

I remember when I began reading books on spirituality in the late 80’s. The Law of Attraction seemed to be a part of many texts. When I furthered my education in the healing arts, I noticed that the paradigm set up around the Laws of Attraction left many of us in a depressed state. Simply put, if things weren’t going in the direction of your intentions, you were not doing something right in your life, or perhaps a prior incarnation was catching up to you. Below are some of my own perceptions….

It is said that everything we do happens for a reason.

I like to think that we can simply find ‘reason’ in everything we do.
Even if that reasoning finds us face to face with the unknown, the mystery behind our life story, the mystery behind our perceived identities in relation to heaven and earth.
It is said that people are put in our path for us to meet.
What if that purpose was not as individualized as we think it is?
What if those chance meetings were for a higher purpose we know nothing about? To bring about a healing effect for an individual on another continent, from a past generation or a generation to come? To influence a parallel reality?
Many take notice of those chance meetings that impact their lives with grand momentum but rarely do we take notice of the homeless person we pass on the streets, sheltering himself under his worn and dirty blanket to keep safe from the cold. Chance meetings like that do not happen unless we want them to. That homeless person is on the same path as the one who will help your dreams get accomplished. I find it interesting how we ourselves alter the law of attraction to avoid shadow and suffering at times. We initiate those chance meetings and experiences to ignite manifestations and positivity on our paths. If we struggle and suffer too much, then a thought comes that we are not in alignment. But what if the struggle is the alignment?
We are taught to raise our vibration by keeping company with those on a similar path.
I don’t recall Christ, Buddha, or any of the other mystics I have read about practicing spiritual bigotry.
I recall a myriad of stories where those who maintained a close spiritual relationship with the Divine kept company with Saints and much as sinners, criminals, the wretched, the ill, the indigent. Their vibrations were raised by the mere fact that they opened their hearts to love all of God’s children equally, forgiving their trespasses as they would want to be forgiven.
It is said that if you change your thoughts, then your desired intentions will follow suit.
I have always thought that if you changed your relationship to your thoughts, that you have just altered your destiny by creating space for something new to come into your life, even if that newness is inner peace amidst your suffering. We identify shift by a physical manifestation as opposed to an internal one. The teachings of the mystics have been lost lately to The Laws of Attraction furthering the understanding that changing one’s thoughts can equate to one’s intentions manifesting physically.
Yes, those people you allow into your life matter.
What is more important is how you hold space for yourself in those relationships.
It is said that if our life is so challenged this time around, perhaps we did something wrong in a prior one.
Really?
Our souls are fragments of other souls combined. Every time we reincarnate, we do so with threads of other souls and patterns within us. We all have good and evil within us, and we are all here regardless of intention to bring that good and evil into balance, embracing our humanity and Divinity until we reach the stillness the Divine intended.
When we focus so strongly on initiating those Laws of Attraction, we involve the ego and forget the humility needed to understand that our purpose is interconnected, our lives are interconnected, our lessons are interconnected. When we allow inclusivity of the Divine purpose, we actually do not have to focus on attracting things into our life as it will happen automatically the way the Divine intended.

 

Holiness

Meet me at the place where God dwells. Where there is no separation among Her children. Where the four leggeds are held in sanctity as much as the two leggeds. Where the natural world is born from the heavens. Where the peace humanity seeks is already granted in ways our minds have yet to grasp. Meet me in this place where God dwells. Let it be so for this new year upon us. May God and the spirits bless us as we enter into this new time of holiness.

Closure

As we come closer to year’s end, these holidays become significant aspects of closure for many of us.
Nostalgia of what was emboldens our cellular memories to bring forth memories that have given us hope as well as memories that have wounded us.
I find that some are ashamed to admit their loneliness of being or feeling of disconnect with themselves and the world around them.
Something is missing, something is lost within the meaning of these year end celebrations. As people gather in joyful glee and before the new year begins, apprehension is also present as people wonder how they will define their lives in this new year to come. How will they relate to the world around them differently than they have in the past? How will others see them and more importantly, how will they see themselves? The internal pressure we sometimes place upon ourselves to find closure with our life perceptions can be intense and self deprecating.
Closure is symbolic of an ending or letting go of an integral piece of one’s life story in order to begin another. Sometimes the process can be easier than other times. The thought of letting go ignites raw emotion and questioning surrounding the authenticity of our lives. It requires surrender on our part and an acceptance of a pattern that brought us joy or broke our hearts. Closure requires us to take responsibility for our relationship to that which we are letting go of. It compels us not only to forge a new relationship with the object of our loss, but asks us to create a new relationship with how we let go of things and move forward in our lives. One of the conversations clients tend to have with me during these last few weeks of the year is what they will do with their lives as they enter into this next phase in time. Constant questioning can lead some into the darkness of their emotions. I don’t think closure has to be an all or nothing situation. Actually from my perspective, cellular memory holds memories of our lineages and those memories are still being healed generations later. So I wonder if we can come up with a new way of defining closure that will engender healthier relationships with ourselves and those around us? What if we allowed the process to be more gentler?

We can find or create great symbolism during our process. The raw emotion provides us with the framework to CHOOSE how we grieve and how we move forward. I don’t know if people realize they do have a choice in the grieving process. They also have many choices as they are letting go. When one feels empowered as opposed to powerless when it comes to creating closure, letting go takes on a whole new life. The process itself has a purpose. Our emotions have a purpose. Closure, at that point, doesn’t seem as overwhelming as it did before.

End this year on a kinder note to yourself. Choose to define closure as life affirming so that you enter into the new year with a renewed sense of being.
Happy New Year.

The Shift

The ‘shift’ happens when your awakening reaches into the substance of your bones; when your flesh realizes with great authenticity that your humanity is as much about the change as your divine self. Our earth element belongs as much to the gods as it does to the lower worlds, those worlds beneath your feet that feed our bodies as much as they feed our minds and spirits. Those worlds beneath our feet that root us into a depth of self that is unspoken.

Anger Transformed

Anger is not usually defined by spiritual paradigms as being a constructive emotion. Yet over this past week and toward the end of this year, it has surfaced individually among many and collectively as a whole. I don’t recall spiritual traditions defining it as a negative emotion, rather the action that stems forth can have its consequences. Anger is an energy first and foremost. It is a fire energy that can either rise up from the earth element and evolve as it reaches the crown chakra or descend from the mind and distort itself as it reaches manifestation. It can also descend from the lower realms of the spirit world for those souls who are still working on their ancestral issues. It can attach to individuals and collectively to peoples as we all struggle to understand an emotion that has been a defining force for centuries when it comes to understanding one’s own power. That same fire energy which yields anger also births forgiveness, creativity, boundaries, purpose. Many on a spiritual path are uncomfortable with this energy and try to work through it faster than appropriate for their higher good. There is a time and place for every emotion both in human and spiritual realms. Working through an emotion faster does not give rise to the healing relationship with it that most people desire. Actually, some would rather not have any relationship with anger at all. The idea of it can be overwhelming, confusing, debilitating. For others, it can be empowering even uplifting. It all depends on one’s relationship to it in alignment with the appropriate response which fulfills that soul’s purpose. An appropriate response? Purpose? Yes, even in the higher realms anger serves a purpose but the intent is not the same. It is simply an energy which serves to direct reasoning, Providence and forgiveness. In human realms, in order for us to learn that it is an energy to work with and respect, we have to work through the living experiences that our anger takes us to in order to rise above. We are all given a choice as to how to carry the anger, relate to it, manifest it and direct it. This fire energy is incredibly strong right now and I believe Divine Providence is providing us with the awareness to carry it with a new understanding, which is why I am noticing people are being so easily triggered these days. Avoiding the fire will only make the flames more powerful. Standing at its threshold, honoring its power and purpose, deciding in stillness what course of action to take; that will transmute this emotion into the energy it was meant to be.

Wild and Free

God met me in the wild of the spirit world where I was born.
She tamed me in the womb of my mother.
She birthed me into a world where the wild of the spirit world now seemed so sacred and silent.
If only I knew then what I know now.
Back to the silent wilderness one day I will go.
Where spirits are tamed by a love so magnificent they spend their entire earthly existence searching for it.
Back to the sacred silence. Where all things wild are free.

Thanksgiving

There are those who surrender to gratitude.
Who understand truths within humanity which breathe life into their souls.
Who speak softly of the Divine, upon which many blessings stream forth into this wayward world.
There are those who surrender to gratitude.
Who understand the effortless of the Divine to give life with all its challenges, heartache, grief, wickedness, raw with emotion which overwhelms humanity.
Life can be taken as easily as it is given. Joy and happiness seem fleeting but lie abundantly within the silence, within the grace, within the effortlessness.
Blessings may not be easily seen or heard, felt or experienced, but imbued powerfully by the Holy Spirit.
And for those whose faith is embodied, that surrender is steadfast.
There are those who surrender to gratitude.
Bitterness does not take hold of their spirits.
Their gratitude flows freely between the heavens and the earth, between all kingdoms under Creation, abiding by those spiritual laws at work.
Appreciating the task at hand to love thy brethren with their whole heart and soul, to love thy earth as much as the womb which carried them between worlds.

There are those who do not know how to surrender.
Who hold tightly to fear, to doubt, to the uncertainty which plagues human hearts.
To the abandonment of self within our wayward world.
To the abandonment of self within the cosmos.
To the abandonment of self within Godnature.
There are those who do not know how to surrender as they do not yet understand gratitude.
It lies within them, a palpable force to be reckoned with, a sense of unyielding freedom from all attachment and desire.
For what is past, what is present, and what is yet to come.
There are those who fear gratitude, the unknown that comes with it, the perceived sense of powerlessness.
May we join together within God’s sanctity, within a moment of silence, to understand the immense beauty that is shared for a life worth being grateful for.
A life that is our own, one that is another’s, and for those lives that walk within every dimension between the heavens and the earth.