To see beyond the scope of the self and raise one’s awareness of the Godhead within is a feat that all humans undertake. The endurance needed to pursue what we perceive as the worthiness of being a child of God is mandatory. It becomes so not because we are indeed unworthy as children of light, but because we confuse our human worthiness with our sense of spiritual unworthiness, and that tends to bring about much pain and despair.
All of us work through our psycho-spiritual growth from the time we are in the womb. We energetically prepare and immerse ourselves in the concept that we are born into eternal life as connected to the mother. We become engrossed with the possibilities that this divine connection has no boundaries. We become nourished by the perception that we will grow in the unconditional love and presence that we feel as we are protected in this space. On a psycho-spiritual level within the womb, there is an inherent understanding of the light and the darkness but no emotional or experience-perceived understanding. As the boundaries begin to become clearer as we mature inside the womb, we begin to create perceptions based on those boundaries that, in our eyes, separate our human natures from our spiritual natures. What we perceive as the loss of innocence, the loss of ‘pure light’ into the polarity of both extremes, begins to become interpreted at some level as human and spiritual unworthiness. And thus begins our quest to find our way back home to God and to unconditional love and surrender. At the human level, we incorporate this unworthiness into aspects of ourselves as we enter this world. The separation from the womb enables us to live a life where we learn the graces of God as we live from day to day through our experiences of giving, receiving, loving and forgiving. Through trial and error, pain and suffering, joy and happiness, we are given the strength to persevere in the way that we are called to. Not everyone follows that calling though. We learn to embrace all aspects of the psyche with the understanding, conscious or not, that we are human beings whose soul intention is to love and be loved. In our never ending search for this ‘feeling’, we tend to miss the boat and continue the search externally. The unworthiness that many of us feel without knowing it becomes embedded in the psyche only as a deterrent. This deterrent is actually the bridge to the netherworld, our greatest teacher, and the greatest influence we can possibly hope for in achieving the worthiness both human and spiritual that is inherent within each one of us. If we can give permission and acknowledge that unworthiness to be present without shame and with forgiveness, then we can begin to heal the wounds that surround us being worthy as human beings.
We cannot just do the work of being worthy as spiritual beings without embracing the human level. As we begin to embrace the possibilities of being true human beings, we will cease to confuse and separate our notion that being human and divine are different and that we can only be worthy in one realm.
In order to even begin to bring ourselves to the awareness of spiritual worthiness, we have to give ourselves permission to stand before God and be humbled. Perhaps as both human and spiritual children. This humility is not an act of doing, but an act of being. The worthiness that comes through the heavens into our beings is a heavenly gift and a kindness of mercy that we are given as children of God. It is given not because of who or what we perceive we are, nor even for the ways in which we live our lives. In truth, whether we live our lives in the darkness or in the light, we are each given the same degree of worthiness by God. It is what we choose to do with that grace that shapes our inner and outer relationships with the Divine. On the human level, because we have attached a sense of worthiness and unworthiness to who we are and how we live in the world, we are forgetting a very important thing. God is merciful in His or Her kindness.
If our divine and human natures weren’t created to learn forgiveness, then we wouldn’t be made manifest in the image and likeness of the Creator.
Thus, in your lives, remember one thing: spiritual and human worthiness is not bound by God, but bound by your confusion as you make interpretations of who you think you are and who God is for you. What a heavy burden to carry. We cannot aspire to be worthy as spiritual beings without aspirations of being worthy as human beings. The two cannot be separated, nor in truth, can the feelings of despair that come up when we confuse the two, nor the feelings of joy and hope that arise when we embrace them.